I am sitting here on my bed at 11:16am wondering why I wasn't meant to be somewhere else. Why was I meant to be sitting here wishing for something and someone who is never coming back? Is there a higher being who wants me to feel astray today, in hopes of a better me tomorrow? I wish my thoughts had a filter, only the thoughts that lead me to a peak of happiness and no delusions were the ones allowed to enter the filter.

If I could go back in time and fix what I damaged, I would. Unfortunately for me, there are more important things in his life than I ever was or ever could be.

The lack of communication and unfortunate disbelief has begun to make me wonder if I'll ever feel this way again.

Some things are left unnoticed, I am simply left.