Impossible.

I torture myself with 'What If's'.

Embrace

Why wouldn't i embrace this beautiful new view of life?
This place has opened my eyes to beautiful things. Things that i wouldn't have noticed if i was at home.
I accept that i've been put here for a reason. And that reason is to learn. And EMBRACE.
I'm happy.

The world is at my fingertips.

I miss Alyscia.
I miss Joseph
and i miss my cat, Nora.

Everything happens for a reason.

Clothes Pin

Disenchanted

I don't think i've ever been more let down in my entire life. I never thought i'd be so upset, so disappointed and so infuriated all at once. Going into detail wouldn't be fair, but i never thought in a million years that i would feel the way i do this morning. Goodbyes should be full of happiness and beautiful memories, not traces of resentment. I don't know how this happened.

Today is so far gone.

Morning Lullabies

Joey arrived at my house Tuesday night around midnight. I was waiting ALL day and night wondering what time he was going to be here. I checked the pearson airport arrivals chart to see if most flights from La Guardia had landed, I was being sneaky. Really though, i had no idea which flight he was on so i couldn't judge what time he'd be here by looking at that. I just sat here and waited. I was so excited when i saw him, he was shaking because he was nervous, and our kiss was a little bit tense at first. He snuck in my back door (mom let him in) and hid in my laundry room. My mom then came upstairs and asked me to print something for her. I don't know how to print, i ask her for help. Needless to say, I knew Joey was here. Seeing him again is like reliving a life that i've already lived. We are the same, act the same and feel the same. We went to the trailor Wednesday afternoon, came back Thursday night. It was really a treat, i love it there. We went for walks, cooked, grocery shopped, ate smarties, worked out. It was nice to get away and be with each other, for the first time in 3 months. Were going to the Mongolian Grill tonight, likely our favourite restaurant. We've already used up one disposable camera, on to number two! Joey is also letting me borrow his Keyboard until i get one, so wonderful :)

There's not much else to report. I miss my friends, and i leave for camp in 9 days.